Once upon a time, there was a 14-year-old girl who woke up one day from a dream, and the consequence was love. She fell in love in a dream, and it felt real for months. This boy was gorgeous, smart, spiritual but he wouldn't look at her (me) as she saw him. I moved on quickly anyway.
¿Cómo podía ser posible enamorarse después de soñar? Bueno, pues eso volvió a suceder. I was 20 years old and once again, I woke up felling in love, but this time, with a girl. She was my boss probably in her 30's and I had met her about a month earlier. She was super sweet, smart, and was filled with patience, such a great attribute (One I lack)! But it just happened. It was nothing sexual at all, just pure admiration, but I felt the butterflies in my stomach and it would make me happy to think about her. It was confusing, I was as confused as I felt when I fell in love with a boy at 13 for the first time, it was all new! It didn't last long, since I stopped seeing her soon after.
A few years later I didn't wake up from a dream in love again, It just happened slowly, with another girl. After seeing her quite often, I started to feel attracted to her, her beauty was hard to describe: her long curly hair, sweet eyes, lips, her personality... I was infatuated. And even though I was attracted to her appearance, it still wouldn't be more than that for me.
I think I fit the Sensualist archetype from Robert Green's The Art of Seduction, described as someone deeply in touch with sensation, beauty, atmosphere, smells, touch, and pleasure. Basically, I enjoy beauty wherever I find it, and I love to contemplate it.
Even though I´ve had these experiences, I would still describe me as straight because I've never wanted more than to admire beauty, just a simple platonic love. Has this ever happened to you? ¡En fin! Random life memories.
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